In our little man's baby book, the last page is left for a letter. I wrote it today and thought I would share it here.
I wanted to wait awhile before completing this page of the book, in order to give us some time to get to know each other. Today, you turn 15 weeks old. It is Christmas time and as I write this, you are sleeping & I am looking at our first Christmas tree as a family of 3. It’s hard to believe that you are only 15 weeks, as it is hard to imagine life without you. You have turned my world upside down but have also filled my heart with the purest, most wonderful love. You and I have started to figure each other out, which has made both of our lives easier as I think we are both easier for each other to predict. I now know how much you love to move, whether it is in the car, stroller or swing. Most recently, you have really started to recognize me and give me a huge toothless smile every time I pass you by. You love to tell me stories and copy whatever noises I make back at you. You LOVE the lights of the TV and you strain your neck to try and catch a glimpse of whatever is on. I have had to start turning it off to get you to pay attention to me! You are a great sleeper at night, but still struggle with your daytime naps. I have come to accept this about you, thinking that you are simply too interested in what is going on and do not want to miss out on anything. I don’t blame you as I am the same way. Most of your awake time is spent sucking on your thumb or fist, making me think that teeth are in our near future. I cannot believe how much you have changed already and know that this is just the beginning. You look exactly like your Dad but so far seem to have more of my personality, which worries me a little bit :)
Oh little man, we love you to the moon and back. On your Daddy and my wedding day, I told him that nobody loved him like I do and always know that that applies to you too. I will spend the rest of my life making sure that you know that. Your Dad and I were there from your first breath, and loved you for you right from that first moment. I don’t remember much of my labour with you, as it was so incredibly quick. I do however vividly remember the moment you were placed on my chest. At that moment, I felt like the world paused and for just a minute, and there was nobody but us 3. We were instantly joined as a family. You make your Dad and I so happy, and also make us wonder so much about the kid, teenager and adult you will become. My hope is that no matter where life takes you, you will always feel like home is a safe, happy place where above all else, we love and respect each other. Our Clarence Road home is still a work in progress, but even without cupboard doors, a garage or the other projects on hold, you make this place feel complete and you did from the very first day you came home.
You just woke up and I know that you will greet me with a huge smile when I lean over your crib to get you. You are my most favorite little person, bub. Your father and you are the loves of my life & my whole world begins and ends with you both.
Love you to the moon,
Mama
xoxo