Babies are everywhere these days. There is one in my own house (shocker!), there are 2 others on our road, and multiple others within our family and friends. Something I have realized since Colin came into our lives is that where there are mothers, there is undoubtedly the topic of sleep. For some reason, it is often the first question out of peoples mouths - "how is he sleeping". My sister and I were talking about this last night at a Stella & Dot/Tupperware party and her feeling about it is because often people know it is a common ground and almost always something that new mothers especially, struggle with. She is probably right. I could talk for hours about sleep as everyone has such a different experience with it.
From the beginning with Colin, we followed the series of books "Babywise". My sister had followed it with her second and I had seen, first hand, the benefits of its principles. The Babywise idea,
in theory, is pretty simple:
- you follow a feed, wake, sleep cycle which they call "Parent Directed Feeding"
- baby goes down for naps and bed awake so that they learn how to fall asleep on their own
Sounds pretty simple, right? Reading those words in a book, putting them into practice and having success however are VERY different things. I read the book twice while I was pregnant and then again the week he was born to really soak in the info. I don't, however think I ever realized how difficult it would be for Colin, and I. From day one, Colin was not be what I would describe as a sleeper. He never was really that interested in sleeping for long stretches. His nights were decent, however his daytime naps were often very short and random. We struggled with getting on a decent schedule as he was so unpredictable. That however was nothing compared to how difficult it was to get him to fall asleep on his own. His crib saw many, many tears and protests which we both struggled through. As 99% of children everywhere, he slept great in the car, which is all too tempting when you have an on-the-go person like I am!

Bottom line is this, when talking with other Mom's about sleep and the issues they are facing with their newborns, 6 month olds, 1 year olds, the only thing I have concluded is this - every child is so very different and every mother finds what works for them. Looking back on the last 7.5 months with Colin, the first 3 were rough. I listened to a LOT of crying and sacrificed a LOT of cuddle time for fear of establishing bad sleep habits. I somewhat regret that I did not hold him more and enjoy the time where he would sleep on my chest, feeling his breath and warmth against me. That being said, for the past 4 months we have enjoyed a baby who falls asleep on his own, with very little crying for naps and bedtime. He sleeps for an hour and a half twice a day and a 3rd cat nap of 30-45 minutes in the late afternoon. He sleeps for 12 hours at night. Jason can put him down at any point, freeing me to get out of the house if I need/want. My struggle is whether or not we would still be here, at this point, with this great sleeper had I not done what I did for the first 3 months. Who knows, maybe I could have held him through naps, let the swing do its magic, or ran more errands through naps. I know FOR SURE that there would have been a lot less crying, and maybe, once he was a bit older he would have caught on to the whole Babywise thing easier. These things I wonder, but I realize that I will never know. As a first time Mom, like all others, I just did what I thought was right at the time. When hopefully another child joins our family I know that I will not have as many opportunities to hold them while they sleep as the reality having 2 will not allow it as much, and for that, I feel like I missed my shot at it a little. I am so grateful for the sleeper we have, and grateful that we live in a time where we have resources such as Babywise to help guide us through the first few months, however as with most things in my life, maybe I needed to relax a little.
I have been told many times before and I can definitely understand now, when people say that having your 2nd child is so much easier. You worry less as you know a bit more about what to expect. You don't freak out when you haven't slept in 3 weeks as you know that the stage won't last forever and soon you will get some longer stretches in. Colds, coughs and runny noses are just part of life, rather than the constant worry they were with your 1st born.
Over the weekend, Jason and I attended 2 seminars on parenting and marriage by Dr Kevin Leman, author of 29 hilariously true, practical ideas on the subjects. One of his all time best selling books is on birth order and he goes into detail about the characteristics that make up 1st born children. He describes them at the guinea pig of the parents, someone to try out all your techniques, rules and parenting strategies on. Even though I have only been a parent for 7 and a half months, I can already see how so much of his description is already true for Colin. So far he has already been a bit of a test subject for me, and I'm sure this will be the case for many, many more years as he will always reach every new stage first before any siblings.
As a side note I found it funny that Dr Leman also described first born children as those who look at Consumer Reports before making a purchase, something Jason is known for. Hit the nail on the head with that one! He also commented that a true first born and a true baby of the family (which I am a textbook example of) are often the best combinations in marriage as they balance each other out. I liked that.
It would be so nice if there was one handbook that worked for every child, at every stage, and adjusted perfectly for every change in their development. I can say for sure that there is not. Trust me, I have looked. I guess that's what makes every child unique and special. They each have their own quirks, likes and dislikes, and routines. I LOVE that nobody knows Colin's better than US. It is so special to me that nobody knows him better & nobody understands him quite the same as we do. If I could go back in time and change some things I probably would, but in the end I am just glad that ultimately we figured each other out and came to an agreement we both could live with.