Dear Addy,
Just as I predicted in my one month letter to you, this past month has flown by. It is amazing what a difference one month can make when you're dealing with a newborn. A little over 4 weeks ago I was still struggling with getting you figured out and integrating you into the routine I had engrained into Colin. Today, things are working so well it almost scares me as I don't quite believe it. You are so easy that I am just waiting for the day where everything will change and you will become more like your brother was at your age. Here's hoping that day never comes!
You have mostly slept and ate the past month away, but you did open you eyes from time to time to say hello and gift us with your first smiles. You have grown so much and are officially out of your first sets of clothes. We also experienced our first blip this month when you and I both had thrush. Although it was not very much fun for either of us, you took it like a champ and besides some mild discomfort during the day, you still slept like a log and battled through your meds. I think you are going to be tough. I love that. When I was pregnant with you and still doing Cross Fit 3 times a week, I used to think about you while there and hope that by battling through even the toughest work outs, I was setting an example for you of what it means to be tough. So far, you seem to have been paying attention.
We travelled for the first time with you this month as well, first with a long weekend at Bird Lake, and next with a whole week at Westhawk Lake. You were so happy and slept so well during both trips that at times, I almost forgot you were there. Besides a bit of a rash, you soaked in the heat and enjoyed having different people to hug and love on you. You did not so much enjoy the water, but I can't say that I am surprised as the lake water is substantially cooler than your warm bath and cozy bed.
This past week, for really the first time since you were born, your brother started to pay attention to you. All of a sudden he is extremely concerned with where you are and what you are doing. He says "Hi, Addy" over and over again and wants to help by getting me diapers and finding your soother when you are crying. Watching him care for you so gently makes me wonder what is in store for your relationship with him as you get older. I am sure I will spend many years as a referee between you two, but I sincerely hope that you two are close one day. He loves you so much already and although I am sure there will come a day where he would swear he doesn't, I know that you will always hold a special place in his heart. Thank you for putting up with him as his touch is sometimes not as gentle as I request and his voice is often louder than I would like. You don't seem to mind.
This month, the dust settled and life returned to our new normal. I owe this to you. If it wasn't for you, and exactly the way you are, I am not sure I would be able to say that just yet. I still cannot believe what a good baby you are. A few weeks ago, you officially slept through the night for the first time. Although you don't make it that far every night, you are gifting me with 10 straight hours of sleep about 4 times a week and I feel like a new person as a result. The other 3 nights are pieces of cake with just a short visit around 5 a.m. The fact that you are doing this on a consistent basis at only 2 months old is something I never expected but is a gift I have no problem accepting.
Oh sweet one, you are my most favorite little girl. You make me laugh, you make me dream, and above all, you make me love all over again. Falling in love with you each and every day is the most perfect way to spend the summer. I look so forward to the next 6 weeks we have your Dad for as having him around means everything is just better. Not only do we get to spend more time together as a family, but we also get to spend more time just you and I, as he and Colin can go off on their own.
It's you and me, and the boys, my friend.
I love you, I adore you, I cherish you. I have for the last 2 months plus the 10 before I knew you. In a way, I have loved you since the moment I met your father and he and I started dreaming about the kids we hoped we would meet one day. You are everything I hoped you would be and more. I hope that I am always what you need, even when you don't see it that way at the time. I promise I will always try to steer you in the right direction and be there for you when you need me. You, your brother and your father are my everything and I am so lucky to share with you your every moment. You are my joy. You are my light. You are my Addy.
Love you to always and forever x2,
Mama
xoxo
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