A few days ago, you turned 9 months old. As of this month you have officially been on the outside as long as I knew you were in the inside, and as per usual, you continue to take it easy on us around here.
Although 95% of the month you did uphold your amazing attitude, we did dabble on the other side a few times. At first, I couldn't quite figure out what the problem was. You were still fairly happy, but would randomly cry out or need to be held periodically during the day. It wasn't until your Auntie Kari pointed out the FOUR TEETH that were coming through your top gums that the mystery was solved. How I missed those teeth coming in I will never know but instantly I understood and sympathized with you as it looked as painful as your cries sounded. By the end of the month they had all broken through completely and you relaxed again. I cannot imagine how much that must hurt and even so you handled it like a pro.
This month will also mark the first time we experienced your temper. Up until now you have pretty much gone with the flow, having toys ripped from your grasp numerous times a day (cue Addy), never as much as batting an eye. On this particular day however, you were sitting with your Dad, playing with this domino math game of your Nana's when Colin asked your Dad if he could play with it. Knowing that you probably couldn't care less, your Dad said sure, but just asked Colin to get something else for you to play with - a trade of some sorts. So, your Dad took the game away from you to hand to Colin...this is where your temper erupted. The sound you made and the tears that followed stopped both your Dad and I in our tracks. We couldn't believe how strongly you reacted. So much so, that we decided to test the waters again...we are cruel parents like that. So, your Dad handed the game back to you, only to take it away again a few seconds later. And oh my, the question of whether or not you were having a temper tantrum was forever solidified - a solid yes. As much as I realize that dealing with baby and toddler temper tantrums is not my favourite part of being a parent, watching you erupt actually made me laugh. To be honest, I think it was the first time I saw that much emotion come out of you.
Seeing this outburst also reminded me that soon enough you are going to be a full fledged opinionated part of this family. So far, you have pretty much just gone along with whatever we were doing, whatever we were eating, wherever we were going. The clock is ticking on this easy breezy stage and I am interested to see how you ultimately fit into the mix around here. One more person means one more opinion and one more personality to mesh into our family mould. I'll be completely honest - that scares me a little. Some days, I feel like all I do is referee opinions, and I just have 2 to deal with. Adding the third (that's you) to the mix will undoubtedly have its fair share of rocky moments/days/months. There are so many unknowns about how you will mix things up around here, at each of your stages and years. That being said, one thing that is forever certain, is that this family was meant to include you. Your Dad and I dreamed about each one of you kids and knew that our lives needed you and our hearts ached for you. I don't know if I will ever feel worthy of the gift that is you (or your brother or sister) but I do know that it is a gift I will never take for granted. Yes, some days are tough, sometimes I am exhausted and from time to time I lose my mind. But at the end of each day, when the three of you kids are sleeping away and the house is quiet again I know that I am exactly where I am meant to be. This life of ours, although crazy at times, could not be better. We are so lucky and so blessed. And you, my dear, make things that much sweeter. So far, the show you have put on has been the very best of opening acts. You have me hooked. I can't look away as I don't want to miss one minute and I wait with baited breath to see the plot unfold. With you as the star of the show, it's sure to be a hit.
Here's to you at 9 months new.
Love,
Mama
xoxo
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