Payback.

There is a song that plays frequently on the radio that makes me cry almost every time. The song is "if he's anything like me" by Brad Paisley and here are the words:

I remember sayin' I don't care either way
Just as long as he or she is healthy I'm okay
Then the doctor pointed to the corner of the screen
And said, "You see that thing right there, well you know what that means"

I started wondering who he was going to be
And I thought heaven help us if he's anything like me

He'll probably climb a tree too tall and ride his bike too fast
End up every summer wearin' something in a cast
He's gonna throw a ball and break some glass in a window down the street

He's gonna get in trouble, oh he's gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback if he's anything like me

I can see him right now, knees all skinned up
With a magnifying glass tryin' to melt the Tonka truck
Won't he be a sight with his football helmet on?
That'll be his first love 'til his first love comes along

He'll get his heart broke by the time he's in his teens
And heaven help him if he's anything like me

He'll probably stay out too late and drive his car too fast
Get a speeding ticket, he'll pay for mowing grass
He's gonna get caught skippin' class and be grounded for a week

He's gonna get into trouble, we're gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback if he's anything like me

He's gonna love me and hate me along the way
Years are gonna fly by and I already dread the day

He's gonna hug his momma, he's gonna shake my hand
He's gonna act like he can't wait to leave
But as he drives out he'll cry his eyes out if he's anything like me
There's worst folks to be like, oh he'll be alright if he's anything like me

Not only does this song makes me think so much about our little man growing up & imagining who he will be in 5, 10, 20 years and on, it also makes me think back to growing up myself. One summer, my sister and I thought it would be a good idea to practice pitching up against the garage and surprise, broke one of the windows on it. I remember that we had to split the $24 our of our allowances that it cost to fix it. The part in the song about losing sleep makes me think about the countless times I came home very late from work, or from just being out to find my mom reading on the couch or watching TV downstairs. I always asked her why she was up, even though I always knew it was because she couldn't sleep until I was home. The last part of the song brings me back to when I left for BC. I remember not crying or being emotional at all until the last night I was home where I sobbed my eyes out on my parents bed. As much as I wanted to go and was excited to leave, I also knew that I was going to miss them and home so much. My long distance phone bill in BC proved that each and every month!

I think it's so neat to wonder and dream about who our man will become as the years go on. I want nothing more than for him to be a strong, confident, independent man, however realize that it too will be difficult to watch the years pass, each one where he needs me a little less. I can only hope that we create as many great memories as I have of growing up.