My Week.

This past Tuesday, I came back from a week in Huatulco, Mexico.  When my wonderful friend and PERSON (for any Grey's Anatomy fans), Laura announced that her and her equally wonderful fiance were to be married at the Dreams Resort, I knew that there was no way I was ever going to miss it.  Thanks to my parents and to Jason for stepping up with the kids for the week, I was able to take off to paradise and leave all my responsibilities behind.

Ever since Colin was born over 2 and a half years ago, from the second I wake up to the second I go to sleep I am constantly thinking and planning his and his sisters lives.  For the most part their schedules, needs, and meals fall on my shoulders and besides a few hours here and there, I have never had the chance to take a notable break from it since they were born.

A few hours after we landed, reality set in that I was truly by myself and had absolutely no obligation to anyone - a feeling that I have not felt in a very long time.  It was strange.  As soon as we got to the hotel, I pretty much ran to my room and had a nap.  Yes, we had been up at 3 a.m. that morning to catch the plane and yes I had a migraine, but I think it was more just my bodies way of telling me that this was my chance and I better take it!

It wasn't until the second or third day that I fully absorbed the reality that was my life for the week.  I stayed up later than I have in a very long time and as a result, slept later in the morning as well.  I very much enjoyed how little I needed in my bag and how simple life became with only one persons needs and desires in front of me.  To be completely honest, because I was by myself, I almost felt like I was 25 again, before the realities and responsibilities of marriage and parenthood became part of my life.  Although I feel immensely blessed to have found my true love and been gifted our amazing kids, there is something to be said for my life as a single.  It was kind of fun to relieve it and even better knowing that at the end of it, I had the amazing reality of my life waiting for me.  Even though the reality of marriage is hard sometimes, and something we work on daily, I am so lucky to have found my forever partner.  Even though my reality of motherhood is full of puke and tears and less than impressive attitudes sometimes, it is most definitely worth coming home to.

And if I needed another reminder, there is no better marriage refresher than watching a new one begin.  I was a teary, blubbering mess as I stood and watched two amazing friends dedicate their lives to each other.  Their love as husband and wife is so deep and pure and it is an amazing lesson in why Jason and I chose the same over 4 years ago.

Thank you Mr. and Mrs. Bastable for the amazing week, tan, taste of relaxation, and peek back at my single self.  Thank you even more for reminding me why I left it all behind.