Today you turn 5 months old. The past month has been like a roller coaster around here. We have had great days and we have had horrible days, but lately, we seem to be hitting our groove. If there is one major thing that I have learned from you this month is that the key to your happiness is sleep. It is pretty much a guarantee that anytime you are not happy, you are tired. I am so glad that we have somewhat figured out how to communicate, you and I…it makes the days so much better.
This month, you have really transformed from an infant into a baby. You like to sit up & see the world and are grabbing everything in your reach and sight. You have started eating cereal and seem to really enjoy that part of the day :). You have also become officially too big for your bucket car seat and therefore we had to make the move into a “real” car seat. This of course requires that you now wear a snowsuit that makes you look even older than you already do. You have started to talk A LOT…and also, love to randomly yell when you are excited. You laugh every time your Dad or I swing you around or throw you up in the air. You still love the bath and even on the crankiest of nights play & laugh in the tub. As your Dad texted me the other day while I was at basketball and you were at your crankiest “the bath makes everything better”. You still can’t quite make it totally over onto your stomach but are so incredibly close. I can imagine that you must be so frustrated but also trust that one day it will all fall into place and you will be flipping and rolling all over the place and I will curse your new skill :).
A few days ago, I thought I lost every picture we have ever taken of you when my computer suddenly crashed. This scare made me think about how important the memories I have of you are. I started to think back to everything I can remember from my labor with you, bringing you home, and other milestones over the past 5 months. I thought hard about the details, trying to ingrain each and every part into my memory. I never want to forget you, and the little man you are becoming each and every day. I know it is not possible to remember everything, but I am really going to try.
After thinking about the past 5 months of memories, I felt FULL…full of thoughts, but also so intensely full of LOVE. I am so full that my head and my heart are at odds, competing for every inch of space. My heart is so full of love for you that it aches with every smile, every laugh, every one of your new discoveries. My heart aches for you and every moment feels special when you are around.
You are my most specialist little man.
Love you to the moon and back,
Mama
xoxo
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I commented before but it is not here yet, so you may get two comments from me. What I said was, isn't is interesting how just when you think you have things figured out emotionally, along comes a little person who just sends them all reeling. Someone who hasn't had children can't understand that feeling. Even more special is when your little ones have little ones, making us grandparents. It's a little slice of heaven. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness...could a child get any cuter than that kid? I don't think so!
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